dear mai’a,
today i posted the following elsewhere and it seemed to me that it was a good way to kick off this year’s ramadan blogging at this site with you. i would want to share the following story with you anyway, and maybe you have some thoughts on it that you would want to share thru this blog. so, let’s get this party started. 🙂
i have spent most of today laying on my very uncomfortable couch, half-asleep/battling depression and i had several odd dreams that i can’t currently remember. but the one i do remember is this:
there were these two twins – Paradise Woman and Pleasure Woman.* even in a dream-state it was obvious that they were symbols. the lesson in the dream was – you can be friends with both Paradise Woman and Pleasure Woman. They are both beautiful, witty, wonderful women. but ultimately, only one can be your *best* friend. eventually, they are both gonna be calling you to different events and you’re going to have to pick which one you wanna hang out with. which is not to say that they never go hand-in-hand, because sometimes they do. but you will find more and more often that they have different interests and that you have to make a choice about which one you want to spend your time/energy with. and you will find, eventually, that you chose one over the other more often than not. and that tells you where your interests/values really lie. eventually you will make a choice between the two.
i don’t know if this is coming to me as a pre-Ramadan lesson, but it sorta seems like maybe it is. i’m not trying to make any judgements or tell anyone else how such a dream should be interpreted, or which twin – Paradise or Pleasure – one “should” follow after. that is an individual choice, and a pretty tough one when confronted with such marvelous options. i suspect that most of us simply refuse to make a choice – but i believe that this dream was a reminder to me that eventually i must pick one. i cannot have a relationship of equal depth with both, it is certainly not sustainable to try to do so.
* i suspect some people will be offended that my subconscious would personify Paradise and Pleasure into women. honestly, i am more hung up on the wider lesson of the dream than questionning why i would see them as women. but i do think, perhaps, it is simply that the dream tapped into my collective consciousness in which it is normal in my culture (First Nations) to personify concepts and normal for oral traditions of life lessons to incorporate a female-seeming personification.